yeah, yeah... totally happy snow and president, YES... but, damn if planning all these readings and the flights and where i'm staying and for how long and who will i see....
it is totally fun. and, discombobulating.
i've been yanked out of the present, violently, and it is really... troubling. i've given myself this 20 minute period in which to rant a little, and whine, and feel tired... and then, that's it. no more. enjoy. appreciate. be grateful. get back into my life, in the moment, etc.
i feel better already.
i haven't worked on my novel since i got my computer back on Saturday. i think i've just had to spend some time catching up with my life... my communications... and getting back to myself. tomorrow night, after work, is for running 4 miles and eating a good meal and writing. i think i'll even shut the cell phone off.... and my e-mail notifications.
i get to see my closest friends soon. i get to see my best friend in Feb, March, AND April... which probably hasn't happened since we were 19! maybe even before... i don't remember.
i get to make new friends. i get to hear & read a lot of great things. and see different cities. and how the poets are in them.
i need a haircut. badly. two reasons i have yet to get it cut:
1. last time, i left looking just like my brother.
2. i have to spend all my money on air fare [and... you know... bills]
my brother is a handsome fellow, but, hey ... i'm not.
i can be.
i'm just not.
now. i think. i feel okay enough to go to bed. and sleep. not just lie there. wondering.
eh, i like being in PRESENT TENSE.
much much more.