you know what it is about writing that i'm finding so difficult is i have to leave the moment i'm in

to write



unless i'm writing what i want to be writing


but then there's communicating

and, really


i give up on that



happy if it actually transpires -- don't expect it anymore



thing is -- some would call this unhappiness

which is not truth


then


do i have to actually make communication a part of my teaching // learning practice?




no.